Winter is...

This winter seems to be sucking the life out of me. I can't stand it anymore. I want to scream. 

It makes me feel like kicking, screaming, and crying like a child throwing a tantrum. 

I'm so sensitive to the weather that it just makes me feel depressed. 

"Oh, you'll be okay." "It's not that bad." "Everything will be alright."

Yes, I know it'll be okay, but if you are not as sensitive (mentally, not physically) to the weather as me, then you don't understand. 

Love Always,

Melissa 

Shine a light in the Dark

Oh man is today gloomy out! 

I'm rebuilding my emotional wall and filling in the cracks as best I can. The blogging has really helped even if they've been depressing as of late. I haven't let my guard down like that in a while. 

You all know I'm strong and so for me to break down that way, you know that whatever it was, it was important and meant something to me. 

I think one of my strengths and downfalls (at times) is that I have so much love and kindness to give and yet even if I don't get it back in equal parts, I still give no matter what. 

For those of you who actually take the time to read these blogs, thank you. You're reading this because I actually mean something to you and you truly care. Think about that for a moment. The first time I met you and who I am to you. :-)

Love Always,

Melissa

Oh Hai

Yes, that blog title is spelled wrong on purpose. 

So, work was so busy, but everything got done, so let's do it again tomorrow. Weeeee! 

Anywho, I've realized that my emotions on Facebook and my last few blog posts have very depressing. I apologize for being a downer. 

Every now and then I do get like this, but some of you who have never seen this happen to me were worried. I'm good, the bounce back is coming and I promise I'll be alright. 

I try not to invest too much emotion into things/situations, but if you know me well, then you know I'm quite incapable of that. No matter how hard I try to hide my emotions, they are usually killing me on the inside. 

I'm a person with a lot of emotion, a lot of empathy, and a lot of love.

Sometimes I think I can handle a situation, but then realize that I truly can't. Usually meaning I should step away from it for a while. Let it be and see how that goes. 

It's always been hard for me to let things go. It usually bothers me that I have to let a situation die down before I can address it again. 

"First step is the one you believe in, second one might be profound." - "I'll Follow You ~Shinedown

Love Always,

Melissa