My journey back from the 9 circles of Hell

Well, the title indicates something worse than it is, but I like Dante's Inferno and so I felt the urge to reference it.

Anyway, this week was completely annoying at work because of my supervisor being out at the biggest trade show our industry has. It leaves me in charge and also the only person who can answer the phones, emails, pull orders, and ship them for our department. I did get a bit of help from coworkers because they are awesome and tried as hard as they could to help with what they could, but still. LOL...okay, done ranting about that.

On Thursday night, I noticed that my financial aid was no longer in my account and that I still owed the school "x" amount of dollars. I emailed them immediately and this is the reply I received the next day.

"Your loan was recently canceled.  At the end of the fall term you reached the maximum amount of time to receive financial aid.
You have 98 credit hours attempted at a two-year college. That is about three years of education.  You can appeal this, but we just had the last appeal for the semester.  You are able to receive aid at a four-year college"

 So, the government cut me off because I had too many credit hours at a 2-year college. I get it, but I still think it's a stupid rule.

Oh and on Friday, I was looking forward to going out of town, but then the person I was going to visit told me I couldn't this weekend because of their work. :-( I was thoroughly disappointed, but completely understood. I had a hectic week and had just wanted to get out of here for a day or two.

On a good note, I had already made an appointment that Friday before ever seeing the email to talk to an adviser in the Adult Re-Entry center and was going to transfer out anyway. After talking to the adviser, we came up with about 4 degrees for me to think about. The first one, requires too much math and I've never been very good with math ever (I know, I'm Asian, what's wrong with me? LOL). The second one (same degree, different university), was not as much math, but I just didn't think it was a good fit. The third, I described to a couple of my friends and one of them laughed and said it sounded like, "you hand us money and we'll hand you a piece of paper". This person is very smart and so I trust their judgement. Another one just said it didn't sound like a good degree at all. The fourth degree actually sounds very plausible and can be done all online (online and out-of-state). Plus, my friend is doing a degree pretty much just like it (on campus and in-state) and was excited for me to be doing it, too.

This week will be getting things processed and the ball rolling on this.  I'll update on exactly what everything is when I know for sure.

Love Always,
Melissa

P.S. I'm also taking a class right now that I can't pay for. This week will determine whether or not I drop it. I have to find the money first. 

Tonight, We are young...

Alright, so I decided to watch my first Christmas movie today. Lol...it was a late nineties one with JTT, even had a N'SYNC Christmas song in the credits. I don't know if I watched it because it snowed today, but it was cheesy, cute, and ridiculous.

Although, I am not decorating for Christmas because no one is coming over anyway. I'm also not really buying presents. I don't really care about presents (although, they are nice), but I like being able to be with family and friends instead.

I had a close friend suggest something interesting to me last night. I can't write it here right now because this blog is not private and could be read by anyone. It would be something different, a little life altering and perhaps a little scary at first, but it could be something really good for me. It seems I need to get things in order and see if I can do this.

Other than that, I am trudging along as best I can.

Whether or not this decision will better my life is yet to be answered. 

Love Always,

Melissa

I really really really wanna...

Hahaha...the title of this blog.

Anyway, I was just thinking that I really want to go to the City Museum in St. Louis with ADW and HKF before the new year and also stop by Gelateria Tavolini while we're there since it's around the corner. I also want to go to Chicago...lol...damn it...I can probably only choose one to do if we do any of them. Hmm...

Well, I have to leave for a short meeting with my professor and then ADW and I are taking my broski to dinner for his 24th birthday. Text me, call me, love me.

Love Always,

Melissa

Is it ever worth the risk?

An evening recap, as ordinary as it may be:

I finally got out of bed at 3pm today. That's what happens when you spend your Sunday's thinking too much. I decided to go do laundry at my mother's and get a little food at the same time. My youngest brother was making Bulgogi, but it ended up tasting more like teriyaki beef. No matter...

I decided to text my friend, AJH (yes, I'm still using initials and not people's names in blogs) and he asked if I wanted to get dinner. I hadn't seen him in probably 2 weeks and so we hung out a bit and chatted. I've been needing to chat with my good and close friends lately, so I was glad I got to talk to him.

After that, I went back to mom's to throw the laundry in the dryer and then watched the rest of Karate Kid 2 with my dad. Lol...that's what I do with my dad when I'm over. Watch his weird movies or just old movies like Karate Kid.

Now I'm home with the clean laundry that I'll put away before bed. It's been a long, fun, food filled, nerve-racking, emotional, fucked up 4 day weekend. It's time to go back to work. On that note, I think I'm going to start a letter to my good friend, ALS in California. He was here about a week ago and we went to dinner. He's the only person that will still correspond with me through letters in the mail. I bought some beautiful Japanese stationary when I visited him last March and so I guess I should put it to good use.

Love Always,

Melissa

P.S. All blog titles will have meaning for me, but it doesn't mean that I will tell you what the meaning is in the actual blog post. :-/

P.P.S. Mother, I never said you were old. I'm handling things the way I know best. I'm trying so hard to do so many things on my own now that sometimes I'm just overwhelmed by everything else as well. I don't know why, but I have to do it this way. I'm pretty hard headed and stubborn. I wonder where I get that? lol...